I’ve been participating in the Deepak Chopra & Oprah Winfrey 21-Day Meditation Challenge and today I went back and listened again to a previous day’s meditation on relating to others and turning individuality in universality. The basic premise of the thought for the day was “Happiness isn’t something you get from someone else. The happiness you feel is in direct proportion to the happiness or love you give.” I know that. I understand that both on a mental level and in a heart to heart level. It’s the working it out in daily life that is the challenge.
Our whole world is focused on the “what’s in it for me?” thinking that its hard to respond in the “what can I do for you?” thinking. I was raised with the “Be that which you desire” concept and I try to walk in that level of integrity every day but I am by no means perfect. Just ask my friends and family. This Be that which you desire thing is not an easy thing to do. It’s so much harder to BE loving when you are feeling unloved, BE forgiveness when you hurt, BE peace when you are angry etcetera. It takes a constant renewing of your mind to live this way.
Chopra says, “When you meditate and make an “inner shift” your relationship with the world will be effected. In meditation we shift in powerful ways as consciousness is always expanding.” That thought stuck in my head and I found myself remembering a scene from Star Trek: The Motion Picture (yes I am dating myself)…..Where they discover that V-ger has become an ever-expanding consciousness in the universe and everything that comes within its orbit becomes part of its consciousness and physical mass.
I don’t know why that movie is what came to mind but it suddenly gave me the visual that we are V-ger in a wide, vast universe and every person and thing we come into contact with becomes part of our reality and part of our expression in the world. Consciously and Subconsciously – whether we realize it or not and it all effects our relationship with this world.
The only way to effect that reality is to focus our creative energy and BE that which we want to attract into our orbit. Our own consciousness is ever-expanding, ever-increasing in knowledge and self-awareness.In enlightenment. I know the world is full of chaos, negativity and scary things. It surrounds us from every direction, all hours of the day and night but we have the power to absorb those impressions (like V-ger) and shape them into something beautiful that fully expresses our divine and unique creativity in this world.
Going back to Star Trek: The Motion Picture, I don’t want people to see me as a collection of disjointed debris they can’t or won’t take time to understand adn has a hard time functioning or communicating in this world. I want to be seen as a collection of interactions and impressions that create a beautiful, one of a kind mosaic that gets better with each interaction in the world and leaves those it touches with a piece of beauty for their own masterpiece.
I don’t know how, exactly my cat Buster knows when we are eating cereal or ice cream….I used to think it was if we were eating out of a bowl but he knows if we are eating something else and he leaves us alone. Doesn’t even pay attention to us.
It’s not smell either because he knows what is inside before he even gets close enough to smell it. I think his intuition is finely honed. But once he is certain it’s a treat he will enjoy he becomes Mr. Stealth as he works his way as close to you as possible. If you push him away he becomes Mr. In Your Face and he will even go so far as to stick his face in your bowl. If you still push him away then you should be prepared for him to act like he doesn’t care as he swishes his furry tail into whatever you are eating in the hopes you will just give up and give it to him.
He cracks me up. I think I need to take a page from his book and hone my deciphering and intuitive skills. Then use them to identify the sweeter things in life I can enjoy. After that it’s all about being determined in getting what I want. Oh the life lessons being taught by my cat….
Have you ever needed a reboot? I was talking with a friend the other day and she told me I needed a reboot. I laughed but the truth is the more I have thought about her words the more I have realized that I do need a reboot. I mean think about it. If your computer is having an issue then you restart it. I know I can’t just shut down my life like a computer and then open my eyes and magically start with a brand new life. I don’t actually want a brand new life. Maybe aspects of it but not a whole new life. I love my life but lately it seems like I need some soul inspiration. Something to recharge my life.
If I continue on with the computer analogy I guess you could say that I have a custom operating system already installed but over time it has slowed down. Gotten bogged down by cookies of past data, attacked by virus thinking, the case is getting worn and showing its age and the processor is just tired from working so damn hard. I would love to just get a brand new, shiny computer with the latest and greatest operating system and the fastest processing speeds and unlimited possibilities for use.
Unfortunately that just isn’t going to happen. The reality is I love who I am and I love the life I live, mostly. I’m not blind to the fact that I have things in my life that could be changed to make it even better. Things I could adjust so I am happier but I love my life, my family, my friends, my job. I just feel like I am missing something important in my life right now.
Everything feels so…the same….
I want a fire in my soul….a burning excitement that gets me motivated each morning….a direction that both scares and delights me. I keep looking and waiting for that inspiration to strike. I know from the past that it can come from any direction. It’s about keeping my eyes open and looking for that certain something to get excited about. That button to reboot my life and get me moving on a new path.
I can’t possibly be the only person in the world that feels like they need a reboot in their life. I know there are others out there looking, waiting, seeking that thing to set their heart on fire. Perhaps if I help others find theirs I can find my own.
“If we were able to live at the level of the soul all the time, there would be no need for hindsight to appreciate the great truths of life.” ~ Deepak Chopra
You ever notice how when you look back on your life you can see the innate wisdom and flow and rightness to the path? You know—the job you lost or the relationship that ended, that although it felt horrible when it occurred, in hindsight was so clearly the exact right thing for you?!? – Brian Johnson, En*Theos
Being a spiritual person I try to look for the greater truths in life. I try to see the divine path in all things. But let me tell you….having my mother go through Alzheimer disease is enough to make me rage at God – curse the divine and give up on looking for the positive in life. I want to wallow in my anger, my grief, my fear and then that moment happens….
My mother in a private moment between us reaches for my hand and smiles at me. She leans in close and whispers to me, “Baby girl, you’ve brought me such joy in my life and I am so proud of you. Remember always that I love you, even when I don’t remember to tell you.” Yep. There it is. That moment when time stands still and I am made fully aware that one of the greatest truths in life is that love is unbreakable, undeniable and eternal. Love is a gift we give to each other and to ourselves.
I know this journey I am on with my mother is part of my story – part of my path that I will understand only once I can look back upon it and see the rightness of the path but for now….this is a very hard pa th to walk and my only way to get through it is to hold onto love.