I know that everyone has good days and bad days. My personal belief is that we determine the outcome of our days by how we choose to let things affect us. Logically I know this, emotionally I feel like I’m not in control of the things that have a tendency to send me spiraling into a bad day, spiritually I know I have the power to connect to source and choose a different response but do I? Unfortunately, not often enough.
I have also come to realize that a lot of the times when I am having my worst days, it is because I have set expectations for how I think things “should be” and inevitably I am disappointed because I’m expecting more from people than they are possibly capable of giving in the moment. It certainly doesn’t help matters if I haven’t been communicating those expectations….so how do I expect people to meet them? Of course there are those times when I have communicated them and they choose to not meet my expectations. (That is a whole other discussion).
I’ve had a run of a couple of weeks now where a certain aspect of my life is causing me a lot of “bad days”. I am intimately aware of the fact that I am responding from an emotional place. I know I can choose a different path, make different choices but in the heat of the moment it isn’t quite so simple or easy to do. So….what have I been doing to fix things? Well, I am an organizer by nature so my go-to action was to sit down and create a life plan.
If there are things in my life that I don’t like and I am not in control of other people’s actions….the only thing I can do is change myself. Right? Right! So I sat down and wrote out all the things I don’t like and want changed. Then I wrote out what I did want. Next step? Figure out what actions needed to take place to get from one side of the paper to the other side of the paper.
So this is where I find myself…lost somewhere in the middle….taking small steps to cross the great divide and praying that along the way I don’t have to find anywhere to hide the bodies…..